Sometimes, for no legitimate reason at all, I get the feeling that I’m a bad friend. I feel like I have absolutely nothing to offer the people in my life, and that whenever we’re together, I end up exclusively talking about myself—being the world’s biggest narcissist and critic.
I don’t know about most folks, but I can’t be the only person who struggles with this, right? What makes these thoughts enter our heads?
I do recognize the irrationality of this kind of thinking, though. I can only think of a genuine handful of people I feel this way about—and they aren’t even my close friends. If the way I thought about myself were true, I wouldn’t have the blessing of the community I have around me on such a regular basis.
People must like me for something… I think I just can’t see past the curtain of my own cascade of thoughts and insecurities—which, ironically, means I’m thinking too much about me.
No one is perfect, though, and I think I’d like to get a tattoo on my wrist that says, “Stop thinking about YOU,” so that I can take a step back sometimes and reflect—even in the moment—that I should try to listen more.
I’m simply writing this in hopes that someone else reads it and feels a little less alone when having similar thoughts. I’m pretty sure that having those kinds of thoughts at all makes you the type of person people want to be around.
-Wyatt
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